i was ok, until u started telling me.
and then the tears came.
didnt even think much about it
you leaving halfway
a ruined tea set
and unfinished Aglio, cake and candle
and me being alone, payment.
i was fine, jus worrying abt you.
until u told me u would be v sad if in these shoes.
and thinking back,
everything kinda struck me.
yea, i wished for cleaned up chocolate
and warm hands this year
along with comfy couches.
sometimes mental preparation only takes you this far.
i knew it'd make u cry, make you think about stuff.
because i cried doing it, every letter penned.
and i really meant it.
wrap my words around you.
be happy, really.
a translucent leaf, and cross amidst the matt and shiny metal
etched, once for a lifetime
for a keyholder.
and so ends today.
which will change how things are,
as all encounters do.

may tomorrow bring a brighter shade of grey.